Well, obviously I decided to change my journal. I love the old one, but I had it for a long time and it was time for a change. And half the links and stuff don't work but I don't feel like fixing too much right now...

So I've been looking for a job for the past couple months and I'm getting desperate. Nobody seems to want to hire me. Now I know it's a shitty time to be looking for jobs, but it's not like I planned it this way. I had to leave all my jobs to go to basic training last January and when I got back in June I had three months of on-the-job training, so I was set until the beginning of September. Now I'm living off of what little I had saved up (in other words, next semester's tuition money) and it's running out. So now I'm submitting at least three applications a week. The problem is, being a college student, I don't have an open schedule and I'm having trouble finding openings with evening hours.

I've been doing a some photography jobs on the side, but it's not nearly enough. (Don't ask how I fell into that, some friends just asked me to do their senior pictures and it went from there.) I'd consider getting into that more seriously, but I don't have the funds to start a business.

I just felt the need to complain, so no, I do not expect to gain any sympathy. I know I'll find something eventually, it's just the waiting that's driving me crazy. And just because I have to put it out there, I'm willing to do commissions and definitely willing to negotiate prices. You can look at my commissions journal for what kind of art I can do, but disregard the prices, they're not accurate anyway.

Unfortunately, all this worry over finding a job is really stressing me out and it seems to be on my mind constantly. That partially explains my inactivity here lately. I also seem to be tired all the time.

I have been getting some art done. I've mostly been working on stuff for my painting class, but the class itself has given me motivation to start working on my own paintings again. There's quite a few that have been sitting unfinished for a long time. On the downside though, it seems I've totally stopped writing. I don't even think about my stories all that much anymore and they used to be on my mind constantly. I don't know why I've forgotten them, but I blame it on my current mental state and the forced 5 month break from any serious art making. (although I did buy a sketchbook in tech school and used drawing to stay awake. I also did simple tattoo commissions.)

And as a closing note... I will get to comments/deviations/journals later. I do not have the motivation right now. And I seriously need to finish editing photos, they should have been done a while ago.